No rains for me please!

93/100

It has been raining so much in Mumbai that I am dreading going anywhere. It really hampers everything and it is getting worse each year. I wanted to rant on it and it went on the lines of how unlucky we are to be subjected to this. That is when I remembered a conversation I had with my mom on luck and how it works

I once asked mom what exactly is luck, to which she answered that its God helping us a little in our task! I wondered that God is unbiased and helps everyone then why is it that only a few feel lucky and rest of us keep cursing our luck. As if mom read my mind, she furthur told me that God helps those who have worked sincerely towards it and deserve it. I found it pretty interesting. So luck is not just a fluke, we need to make luck by our constant efforts! But then there are times when i have worked and slogged for many things and still didnot get those! Does that mean i didnt deserve those? Or was it that my efforts were not enough? When i wondered this aloud, mom told me that there were also times when i got things without puting much efforts in them and that time I didnt ask why I got it, I didnt deserve it! That was the other side I was ignoring. There were actually many times when i got things just like that and i never thanked universe for it! But i still didnt understand the basis on which luck favoured us!
Slowly and gradually i have come to understand it! This little thing called luck works in its own funny ways. I would call it God’s blessing! If we observe our life, we are blessed in every moment, we are lucky every moment! I have realized that i dont thank God for all the times i feel blessed or lucky but the precise moment i feel something going against me i say ‘OH NO, why me’!

Universe and the super power works in its own mysterious ways, so we are not favoured with luck everytime or so we feel! We cannot understand those ways, that is the reason there is a super power beyond our comprehension! It is not for us to understand how His ways work! Ours is the job to work hard, be sincere and thank the universe for all that we have today! We are all God’s children, He will take care of each one of us! We all know this, but still many people go to astrologers and numerologists to make their future better! I dont say its wrong, everyone is curious with regards to future, I too read my zodiac daily! But that is not the way to please the universe or God! We all should first thank Him for what we have today!
If i am able to write this post, am luckier than many who never got a chance to study!
If I get to use technology, am luckier than many who dont even get food daily!
If I have parents, am luckier than many children in orphanage!
If I have a place to call home, am luckier than many who live on streets!
If I wake up in morning, i am luckier than many who died!

I had decided that I will try to stop cursing my luck and show gratitude instead for giving me such a blessed life! However, every now and then I slip and end up with self pity cursing and finding excuses. But today, I chose not to rant but to instead be grateful that I am safe home. I hope everyone else is safe too ❤

Do you believe in luck?

Are you superstitious?

70/100

Some months ago we were playing a question game with our friends. This game was really something we invented ourself and it goes like one person will ask a very intriguing question and everyone on table has to answer it. Brilliant way to have a conversation and also to bond, must say. We really had a ball playing it, it is definitely documented as a happy evening in the shelf of my memories (you can imagine a setting from the movie inside out). It was one of those evenings I will keep reflecting on in years to come. I am getting really nostalgic about a memory that’s not even that old and the post is definitely not about that. Writing is a mystery, you never ever know what you’ll end up feeling once you start typing. I want to talk about something very specific but my mind wants to be all nostalgic and stir the beautiful memories. Should I give in and change course? Should I not because I will be a puddle of mush otherwise?

Sticking to the topic! So, one of the questions that was asked was “are you superstitious? And name two superstitions or belifes you have”. My superstitious side, mostly hidden from world, had to come out and face the limelight that day. I mean, I am not that superstitious but I have some. I always felt that it is ONLY ME who stupidly believes some of them but my, oh my, others do too! I felt so much at ease after that, so I decided that why not let it be out in the open and maybe help others know that no matter what you believe in, no matter how crazy it is, this world is so big that you’ll find someone who matches your crazy! The two superstitions I mentioned, one of which was literally narrated to me by my partner in my ears because he bears the brunt of it, were I don’t speak about anything planned or upcoming until it is actually happening or is done because I fear I will jinx it and the second one was making a wish whenever clock strikes 11:11. I mean I definitely have some more silly beliefs but these were the ones I shared that evening. What I was pleasantly surprised with was how things getting jinxed was so common and everyone agreed to it. Why I was surprised was thanks to my lovely partner who shares things way before they happen and it took forever for him to understand and adjust to why I feel this way. Really happy he understands it now, it is somehow really important to me. I don’t think the harmless superstitions like these do anyone any harm? If we believe them then that’s really okay. Following them won’t harm no one. Problematic are those superstitions which cause someone else or us any harm. It is really a sticky topic, to get someone to shift from their beliefs or superstitions! I don’t really want to get into those negative practices or thoughts as this is more about the silly superstitions like the cat crossing the road one! The funniest one I have heard is about how sprinkling cow piss is auspicious! It baffled and amused me when I first heard it. One that I am sometimes forced to follow is of not having meat on certain days of weeks, thanks for that one mom! It really all zeros down to if we are God fearing people or God Loving people. Obviously, it is best to be a mix of two but humans thrive on extremes. As long as that’s going on, the superstitions and beliefs aren’t going anywhere!

I am really intrigued to know what superstitions or beliefs do you follow? Oh and what is the silly or funniest superstition you have heard?

Before sunrise!

59/100

It is most likely that I will be sleeping sad tonight, tears and all. It is something too inconsequential, what I am crying about but does that matter at this point? No. In retrospect it might. Funny thing is that since I was a kid, I only believed or badly wanted one thing. Not sleeping upset or angry. Whatever has happened should be resolved before you sleep. End should be good. If something made me sad, I’d do something I knew would cheer me. If someone fought with me, I tried to fix it, if it was in my hands. I don’t remember what or why I thought so but I felt we must sleep with a good, non anxious and even happy mind. Atleast for things in our control. Who knows what tomorrow holds, day is over and it will be a new start the next day so why not end the day on a good note. I hated sleeping angry with my parents, it made me anxious. As I grew, my happy circle then included my friends. Now, I have lost that belief or I have just stopped trying to fix things. Adulting is complicated and too many things happen which are upsetting. Your circle broadens and so do your problems. I mean so does love but as I said even if I know that, right now it does not matter.

I wish to get back that belief, to sleep happy at night and forgive whatever shit happens. Because well, shit happens. No one will care about my belief more than me, so I need to take charge. I hope I do, as of now it seems too hard.