Can I start by saying that when I opened the blog post to write a new one I was so excited that I am doing a third one already, I MADE IT TO THREE!! However, as soon as I typed 3/100 I realized I have a LONG way to go still, it’s just three!
Anyway, what are your thoughts about meeting people and spending time with them? Friends, family or colleagues. I mean how does the prospect make you feel? For me it depends on situation, meeting immediate family and best/close friends is always a joyful event that I look upto but meeting distant relatives or colleagues just causes anxiety. To add to this, I think covid has changed something related to this aspect inside me. From looking forward to meeting people I love, now I yearn it. I know we keep in touch digitally and how it is the need of the hour to stay put at home but not being able to feel warmth of people we love, do baseless talks, jokes or just be in silence around friends and family is a joy that has been snatched due to covid. In bigger scheme of things, it is a very small price to pay for human life I agree but does not mean it hurts less.
I am particularly touchy about this today because a couple of friends who stay near us dropped in to say hello and I felt so nice. There was nothing out of the ordinary that happened, we just ate, chilled, joked and that’s that. Yet, it made me exceptionally happy that I saw another human, other than my husband (for him, I, anyway, am thankful but this just hit different bro). I know it will take a lot of time for things to get back to “normal”, we have been told this is the new “normal” but can universe just allow us these small joys every now and then without causing anyone any harm? Surely, that is not too much I ask.
Even if you are a remotely optimistic person, new year brings in hopes. Very hard not to fall for new beginnings, plan stuff, get organized and make the list to, somewhat, direct your life or year towards things you love. I try that each year, not very hard, but I try. This year, I am a little more motivated and enthusiastic towards it. I have a few targets in mind for this year. While some people like to talk about targets, visualize goals and put it out there, I am someone who likes to talk about things after they are done. Weird? Maybe. But it is what it is.
Why write this post if I am not going to visualize or spell it out? Because it has been almost two months and I am not entirely failing. I am happy about it. I am not succeeding yet but hey, small wins. Gotta enjoy them. So, I want document this trivial achievement of me not giving up. Things that have really kept me going are
Setting smaller goals
Showing love to myself and mybody
Taking it slow
Trying to get into a routine
Even though I cannot talk about my goals, I have the perfect way to still track them and that is through the Belief jar. On my birthday in Jan end, I received a belief jar as a gift and I was SO happy. It is the cutest thing and came to me at the right time. I am going to manifest the things I want and that jar is going to be my source of happiness, positivity and motivation. I am completely surprised how much in love I am with it and how did my best friend know that it is what I needed.
Here’s hoping I will do complete justice to it and enjoy the process!
Let me start by asking whoever is reading this, what is cinema to you?
If there is something I have missed dearly since March 2020, it is being able to go to the theater and be a part of a new world everytime. I love movies. For me, cinema is meant to be an escape as well as a mirror. Sometimes, I am looking for an escape from the real world, the real problems and I just want to watch something magical, sappy and feel good. Some other times, I am looking to watch something which has a message for everyone and shows what is going on with world. Either ways, films never disappoint. You can count on them to make you feel happy, sad and my favorite feeling magical. I have related to Kabir saying “main rukna nahi chahta”, fallen for more characters than I can count and believed that Avengers can save the world. Call me filmy only because I am one.
I know not all movies live upto expectations but the experience is always precious. Always. It could be you watching the movie alone or with bunch of people you love or movie with your date. The joke cracked or an anecdote shared during a relatable scene, it really tells you a little more about the person you are with. If you are someone who loves to be silent during the movie, the movie itself is your experience. I have loved watching alone, with my friends, with my boyfriend and with my family. Why am I so emotional about cinema today? Because I recently got to watch a movie in theater after almost a YEAR. And it was with my…umm…HUSBAND! Haha. Feels so weird to call him that!
Even the anticipation of the watching a movie at the big screen after such a humongous gap had me grinning so much! What made it EXTRA special was that I saw Wonder Woman – 1984! Not only do I love Gal Gadot insanely but I had forgotten how magical movie watching is! I REALLY needed it so much. Although I was wearing my mask for most parts and sitting at a distance (never forgetting Corona huh), it still helped to escape the problems surrounding us and took me to 1984 with The Wonder Woman. The movie is amazing and the experience made me supremely happy. I was almost giddy by the end of it. The feeling I was missing for so long. It brought back the wonder I have always had during movies. How did they think of this? How did they shoot this? The witty dialogs, the amazing acting, mind blowing direction and picturesque scenes. There really is no better satisfaction than watching a nicely made movie! I hope I don’t have to wait this long for next one.