So the title is something Jonathan says on Queer eye and it means “Struggling to function” and that’s exactly how I feel right now! I have taken too much on my plate and now it’s over flowing! But we shall power through! Wish me luck for whatever I am doing, it is needed!! I have again hit a standstill, I have so much going on that I have no thoughts to spare and hence really not much to write about. I am not sure if I am sad about it or not because life happens and cannot avoid it really. The only other thing that I am actively doing is writing. Usually, when I am busy on something specific, I ignore other things or put them off. Off social media, non responsive on calls or text….you get the drift right? But I am still writing today. I AM REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. What makes me come back? It’s a feeling. Words might not do justice, but I will try 🙂
Are you passionate about anything in your life? A strong feeling about something. That treacherous yet soothing feeling to do the thing that you feel you are made for. That burning desire to chuck everything and everyone else aside. A desire that makes you feel incomplete and complete at the same time. A desire as strong and forceful as it might be, once fulfilled calms you in the stickiest of states. A passion that tells you that all is not lost when you are in your worst situations. A passion that is your companion, your better half, something that would never betray you. A passion that is a balm to your wounds, that cheers you up, that fills you with happiness to the brim. A strong desire for something that consumes you completely. Consumes you so much, it becomes a part of you. A part that aches if not fed properly. A part that craves for attention and you love attending to it. Something as addictive as a drug; a drug with no bodily harm. A part that you cherish, love and revel in!!
This is how I feel about my writing and reading both.