Too many goodbyes!

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I am not sure if it’s the air or something on our cards, a lot many of our friends are in the process of moving or looking for opportunities to move to a different country. It almost feels like a part of our life will be at a standstill and there is not much we can do! It has stired a box of memories from which have fallen the scenes documented in our heads which are playing like a roll of film on display. It’s almost like if I closed my eyes, I can relive those moments but I know when I open my eyes I’ll be alone. With that, comes the fear that as time passes, these pictures and scenes in our head and heart will fade leaving us with nothing but fragments of how it used to feel. The laughter that echoes everywhere whenever we meet will be a distant sound trying to come afore but failing. We will yearn for the warmth our hearts feel with their proximity and love just like a fireplace feels in a cold barren land with piercing winds. While the move is yet to happen, the news itself is very unsettling. I am torn in half with feeling happy for their upcoming move and sad that the distance between us will increase! Why are goodbyes so hard? Why is it wrenching my heart even before the time of move is finalized? Why is this emptiness surrounding me like I have entered some trapped door alone and there is no exit in sight? Why does love have to be so hard? I wish I could practice detachment as easily as some people do but no, I am that idiot who has walls up her heart but once someone enters there is no easy way to part with them.

30 thoughts on “Too many goodbyes!

    • Haha this was how I was feeling like that. I want to make sure when I write, I post something that is relevant and not just for the sake of it. So I try and keep it real πŸ™‚

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      • Your posts look so original and it’s because you write what you feel!! That is awesome and I love it. Moreover you always use your own pictures in your posts and I love you for that too 😊❀❀

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    • Which comment does this refer to? And I agree, reading can make you link some part of your life to it which is why I think it is important and relevant to share:)

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      • seems like it’s been lost in the post… 😊… now here’s the weird thing… it said roughly what Jeff has said… although he says it more clearly…. which is learning for me too… so its a 2for1 result… pretty powerful, no? I wasn’t even looking for it… a lovely surprise to be taken by surprise 😊

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      • I was just wondering about this! So glad to know, you are not counting which means it does not matter anymore. You are a winner already! Haha, I am so happy that along with my personal growth this challenge has connected us this way! Puts a big smile on my face πŸ™‚

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  1. A normal part of the human experience, dear Pooja. You are not an idiot. I get from you that you love fiercely, and that makes goodbyes hard. Even with practicing detachment, goodbyes are still hard. Normal. A most vulnerable and beautiful post. ❀️

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  2. You’re not an idiot, dear Pooja. Anyone in your position would feel the same. I found myself feeling this odd mixture when my best friends relocated to a different country. One of them had to go a few weeks before my wedding and she couldn’t make it to my big day. Both of us were upset but that’s life. We make do with video calls and texts. You might not be near each other but the bond will remain strong. Goodbyes are hard but thanks to WhatsApp, we have a lot of different ways to stay in touch

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    • Aye, that made me so sad to read. I cannot imagine how hard it must have been. For us, the day is still far but I already feel my heart sinking into pits! Not a nice feeling. Yes, ofcourse we can be in touch via technology but the charm of being together in one room is not comparable 😦

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  3. Goodbyes are hard, I agree !!! And its completely alright to feel like that ❀❀❀❀ you will be connected through technology, I know nothing can beat physical presence but it is what it is

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  4. “Why are goodbyes so hard? Why is it wrenching my heart even before the time of move is finalized? Why is this emptiness surrounding me like I have entered some trapped door alone and there is no exit in sight? Why does love have to be so hard? I wish I could practice detachment as easily as some people do but no, I am that idiot who has walls up her heart but once someone enters there is no easy way to part with them.”. This is the best part of your write. Goodbyes should be as easy as Hellos. Life is forever moving forward. And forward we must go. If you are an idiot, then so must be all of us .

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    • Thank you so much, I am glad you liked it. It was exactly how I feeling. I wish goodbyes were as easy as hellos. Even new hellos cannot compensate the hurt and void caused by goodbyes. I wish for detachment but I do think living like that would be no fun, so its a huge conundrum πŸ™‚

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