Shall we talk about lies? Or would it be too offensive? This is not about those white lies or lies we tell others, that’s bad too. But about the lies we tell ourselves. There are so many reasons behind this, so many layers to this. Sometimes we lie to ourselves unconsciously to boost our self esteem and some lies are just said to avoid facing the harsh realities.
It becomes a problem when the lies lead to self deception. We try to soothe ourselves by saying what we want to hear from others and pretend that everything is okay. I wish behaving like everything is okay actually made it okay. In reality, it just accumulates the pile of lies and bursts in form of depression or mental breakdown. A lot of people lie to themselves and think of it as manifestation. They are really poles apart. Manifestation is believing in something and making it happen and self deception is a lie. I, personally, have lied to myself as a coping mechanism. Sometimes things become so hard, it seems difficult to survive. It feels like we will not make it and the only way through it is to lie to ourselves and survive. Today, I got thinking that when do these lines blur? Lies become our reality. When does this lie become a life we are living. Lie is sometimes so natural that you won’t realize the lie until you are doing self introspection. My bubble for a couple of things popped out today when I sat with my thoughts. I am yet to come to terms with how I completely feel about it but it sure is not very pleasant 😦