And still, I rise!

I am writing something after two years. Maybe even more than that. So like, a 25 month hiatus? Hah! My head right now is a ground full of random and immense thoughts, all racing towards finish line together and all of them winning. Does that even make sense? I think I did not write for so long because I often just wonder, “Do I make sense?” Now, I am not suddenly writing because I think I make sense. It is rather because I want to know if I make sense, I want to learn how to make sense.

With my anxiety at it’s peak (thank you 2020), I have been mulling a lot about how I want to do my best to not let this year pin me down. Surrounded by so many triggers, fear of unknowns and some knowns, with this perpetual home arrest that doesn’t end, constant worries and let downs and with this very serious illness surrounding us, anxiety is having a party in my head and I want to call it off!!! I want to get better and feel good. Some might think it is a bit late for it, however I don’t. I have to start somewhere, so here at 3am is my start. Weird huh? Actually, not weird enough because it is 2020! Right now amongst all the feelings I feel, the one that is relevant says all we need is a little push. My push came from a random conversation with a friend and I want this post to be that push for someone reading it. I am not a very positive person overall and I still want to hope that this will make someone understand it is never too late. Finish that book, cook something simple, treat yourself, dance a little, sleep a little extra, take that break and most importantly watch the sunset.

My posts might not be this ray of sunshine always and definitely won’t make a whole lot of sense (warned you) but this one is a small win and I want to enjoy it.

2020 has not been kind, so I have decided to be a little extra kind to myself and to others πŸ’«

10 thoughts on “And still, I rise!

  1. Max relatibility… The photo you used is the calm I’m trying to find and yes all the chaos that you described … Feels a little better to know someone understands it… Nd we can still hope. Just one thing- you are all sorts of positive one can ever wish for. I for sure can vouch for this.

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  2. I’m so happppppyyyy!!! Is this the best thing that happened in 2020??? This year got you back to blogging!!!😭😭 Your biggest fan is right here, waiting for each one of your posts. And I’m thrilled that your post is about coping with the fear and anxiety surrounding us at the moment. No matter how dark the night is, the sun always rises the next day right? Let’s make this year about finding joy in the small things we never paid attention to. That’s what I’m doing at the moment and it sure does help me stay sane in this period of adversity. Welcome back to blogging, my favourite blogger!πŸ’™

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    • SAHAAAAANA!!!!!! YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION FOR THIS! I HAD NO CLUE WHEN YOU SAID MY BLOG FOR BHAVESH INSPIRED YOU SO MUCH YOU MEANT IT! I started reading your daily posts a bit late (you are JUST 20 posts away)!!!!! I cannot believe it πŸ₯³πŸ₯³πŸ₯³ that inspired me to atleast start penning down whatever I felt like, no matter how lame or known it is. So THANK YOU! I seriously don’t know why would you call me your favorite blogger, when in reality it is YOU who is taking it so seriously and diligently. ALLLL MY LOVE FOR YOU. YOUR BLOG IS THE BEST AND YOU ARE A STAR! I din want to tell you this without showing the impact it had on me, so I am telling this now. I started this again because you have inspired me. You deserve all the love and accolades you are getting πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™

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      • OMG!!!! You noticed itt????😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I desperately wanted to tell you about it but was so scared that I would jinx it if I talk about it. I’m just 20 posts away😭😭😭😭😭 I can’t believe I came this far…I can’t believe you are reading my posts… Yessss!!! Yesss..!! It’s all you.. your birthday blog for Bhavesh just pushed me balc to writing my blog. I really love blogging but always thought I wasn’t good at it. This year I just lifted the unnecessary expectations off my head and did what made me most happy! Thank you so much for paying attention! I LOVE YOU!!! πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™

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